fucking hormones

i think its either I'm very tired or just being hormonal. I HATE EVERYONE.

(unhappy)

i just hate it when people snap so easily. One minute you're like this and then the next minute you're like that. jangan buat orang benggang okay!

(rant)

So I have a new system. Any topic that starts with an open bracket means you will hate me after reading the entry, so instead you can skip reading them and just read entries without brackets in the topic.

So I've already started sleeping at a friend's house because i have to move out of my house right. So his house is right next to the traffic light and its at level 5. everything is not right. so not right.

traffic light = noises from cars, exhaust noises from buses argh

level 5 = dust creeps inside the house easily

which gives me headache from interrupted sleep and sore throat from constantly trying to blow my nose.

baaaaah

raRarARararra

sabarrrrrrrrrr

looks like i have a crazy week ahead of me; i have 6 geology presentations pending to be finished within 7 weeks, supposedly going to give one presentation tomorrow morning but then I don't like last minute stuff so going to stack this presentation with another presentation this Tuesday so I can work on both during the weekend.

I also have one bunch of reservoir/production engineering + simulation report + presentation due within 6 weeks goshh nada life :(

im an eating machine

zomg doing economic model for thesis is depressing! I ate and do shit stuff, like finishing one whole bar of fruit and nut, co-finished with hirda that 500ml of Mother drink, whole lot of mini-snickers and army batch of spaghetti. Hirda even finished 5x250ml vitasoy in one night. I'm supposed to go to gym in the morning but we slept around 6am because we kept on eating and eating, doing and worrying about thesis!

I'm so gonna die soon if like this!

*yawns*

where the heck is everyone? what happened to my friends in Brunei, I think the only people that constantly chat with me are my parents and nurida. The rest are exclusions like Nena cos we're too dependent on each other but sometimes i can't believe that nena told me stuffs that happened in brunei as if she's in Brunei. Even my seniors online tapi idle ani wah! except for airul sal ia bored like 90% of the time. and stilll MANA SI NAJURAH AH? dulu masa ku di md setiap hari ia chat sama aku ani hiiiiiilang tia! Ah si duan pun sama jua! napa ia chat sama si nena but not me?? I bet he's trying to kiss Nena's ass!!

no im not pmsing, i'm sleep deprived!

bish

Pictures

So i uploaded some pictures taken while in vietnam. You can view them here! I didnt take a lot of pictures cos im just lazy!

Its 3am now, i think I'm having a jetlag and to make things worse i have class at 9am tmrw and I need to wake up at 7.

I'm a bit upset today. I don't like what I'm doing now, just because I don't excel at it. It's fucking hard for me to accept that and I feel dumb and I'm tired of crying cos it won't change anything! I don't want to do extra things but at the same time I don't want to give up as well so it's just annoying.

I question myself, didn't i work hard enough? what did i do wrong? what's actually wrong with me? what the fuck man even after 3years I still can't get the flow? then I must be stupid. On other note, maybe I'm just lazy. Lazy but smart that's why I managed to pass everything but not excel. Whatever the reasons are I'm fucking annoyed.

fuck fudgity fuck

r

stop being a fucktard

i have a friend who is a fucktard.

On other hand, I'm thinking of selling some of my stuffs like textbooks, story books, maybe my unused makeup, clothes. Going back to Brunei for good early next year so I better get rid of them early plus i can use some cash for something else..I might advertise them here and maybe gumtree or picasa them. Not sure when but probably soon. 

lalalala.

ramizah

ahh im so stressed -

that i wanna buy you John Galliano's suits!!!!!!!! my chest hurts, it hurts :(

what?

I cant believe some people are so cheap! I'm not happy with the fact that we have to pay just to get the exams result! Siapakan punya idea barang2 cemani ani? how can you mix education and business tactics? kalau tactics menjual buku, pencil case atu inda ku duli ani kan tahu result pun mesti bayar kah??? terlampau jua kan mentrap urang ani eh wahai orang2 berkenaan.

1) MOE inda suruh urang bawa handphones to school tapi result keluar thru handphones, how ironic!

2)kenapa inda keluar berita rtb pasal result keluar atu? inda official kah result atu ataupun saja2 kan menapuk2.

3)kalau bayar $3 barutah tahu result lebih awal, kalau nada hp cemana? kalau urang inda mampu bali hp cemana? kenapatah urang2 berkenaan ani main taraf2 ani? Macam jiranku bah ia nada hp, kesian jua ia atu left in the dark menunggu2 resultnya lapas 3-4 hari barutah ia tahu result nya! Bagi orang yang ada kemampuan, bali hp untuk anak, lapas result keluar hp atu untuk apa? semestinya untuk anak atu lah, imagine a form 1 kid with hp wah bagus2, eventhough i dont see the need to have one.

I can justify a 7 year old kid with hp outside brunei but not in brunei, no one in Brunei need a  handphone, why because 1)kids dont use bus in brunei so parents dont have to worry the whereabout of their kids after school, 90% of the time your kids are beside you sitting on the passenger seat after school(with seat belts fasten)! 2)kids can occasionally have hp with them, like during extra classes, hiking, camping but not everysecond of their life..

Anyways back to the sms thing,

4) exam kitani free except for private candidates so kenapa result atu mesti bayar? Inda ku paham banar. Yang ku paham, ministry ani memudahkan dan menyelaraskan pendidikan di negara a.k.a memudahkan kehidupan urang tapi on this case, kan tahu result pun mesti bayar bukan kah atu menyusahkan namanya tu?

Tahulah ku $3 atu inda banyak, apa jua sama jua harga macam sigup, sama ani jalan kebaikkan (sigup haram) tapi masih jua ku inda puas hati kenapa drg mesti tangguh2kan the distribution of result through school. Macam double standard jua tu, siapa ada hp and $3 buleh dapat result awal, siapa nada..sorry tunggu lain hari! I dont mind kalau sms ani keluar sama2 dengan masa result keluar di schools but whats going on now is a no no!

totally inda puas hati dan idea ani adalah idea paling inda bernas bagi tahun 2008! (walaupun abad 21 haha!)

b

we malays are so full of superstitions and love to be acknowledged. its annoying me.

rrrrrrrr

WHY DO PEOPLE HAS TO BERDATING ARAH JALAN MAULANA??

Kalau dalam krita atu, jangan tah kan bermesra2 dengan kekasih. Urang di dalam krita di blakang atu sasak bah cemana kan inda sasak sudah jua drivingnya ke kiri ke kanan sloww lagi macam jalan siput..astah urang di blakang atu mana tahu kan bekamih kah kan beria kah lapar kah eeeeee Sasak ku. Cubatah kalau kan bermesra2 atu jangan time di dalam krita, branti kerita atu disiring kah di dalam hutan kah kalau malu. 

Okay atu saja kan ku blog.

RANT

So I'm sitting on a bench at one of RIPAS hospital corridor. ICUs corridor to be exact. Kids running back and forth in front of me. These kids are just like me, visiting relatives but the difference is that I am not making any noise except for my keypad typing but these kids running around shouting and singing London bridge song. I am pissed. These kids are not supposed to be here, this corridor doors at least 3 ICUs, they're not even allowed to enter the ICU, their parents are very very inconsiderate. People are dying inside and their kids are happily singing london bridge and running and shouting. fuck this, next time when you become a parent please be considerate and don't bring your loud kids to hospital cause they know nothing so when I look at these kids i blame their parents for not being able to control their kids. As a parent, you fail on that aspect. YOU FAIL AS A PARENT.

fuck fudgity fuck

fixt

my eyebrows look horrs! blame exams and boyfriend.

hehe!

Dear Teacher

Thanks for failing me!

ARGH!

i need a good break!

i need a break from all my uni work! i know talking about school work is boring but i need a friggin break from all these assignments essays and exams! I can't even count 5-2+2 anymore!! thats how damaged i am. astaah lari ke hawaii ku karang!!! haha

sabar sabar sabarr mizahhh

before i go to uni

i want to rant! stupid US currency is shooting up and the only thing thats worth buying over there now is anything that are sold in mecca and kit cosmetics. I am so angry!

Dear mr bush,

can you make your currency go down?

x

rara and friends

Argh!

do you know how it feels when someone is trying to get information from you but you don't want to give but that person is slowly digging and without realising, you have told them all? Well I'm amazed with people of such skills but that's bad if you do it for your own advantage or for the sake of knowing to fill your brain's grey matter.

why can't you just ask me directly without beating around the bush and if I don't want to tell you that means I don't want you to know and possibly I don't like you.

And asking my friend what's going on by making a conversation that is totally out topic to start with and slowly digging and digging ARGH!

I can't stand it. and that's so low of you to do it to me and my friend.

DST YOU ARE SHIT

APPARENTLY DST HAS INCREASED THEIR CHARGES!!! BUDUH KAMU DST Comm!!

So my vodafone is with Aimi right so I was using my DST line to text nick and then in my head it was only 80cents per message. Sekali nya i pressed *104# and guess what came out...

$1.00 for SMS 

and $1.80 for incoming call!!!!!!! and there's no public announcement on this fucking price increase????? BUDUH KAMU DST!!! I won't pay my $25 yearly fees! biartah ku nada phone line! arghhhh

*checking bmobile's price plan* 

UPDATE:

same thing with bmobile! buduh jua phone company ani eh! rip off banar

ps: dont talk about brunei's small population!! aku marah

i want to kill myself

reason:

1) MAC price hike

argh! i'm an NC40 thankiu

x