Can't sleep

And I don't know why.

There's no one here to stroke my hair and no hand to rub my thumb on..

I guess I'm gonna be a zombie at work tomorrow

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Tomorrow.

Plan to have a quiet one this year. 

I got a new kitten, another Scottish fold thinking of calling her Oreo cos she is black and white with mitts. Do is handling her well just like how a big brother should be. I think he's a bit jealous initially but he's accepting that he is going to be a big brother now.

R

Today must be a good day because

1. I was not sleepy throughout the day

2. Managed to learn how ecms and kamikaze probes work

3. Did 5 strict push ups in one go (never able to do this until today!! It took me 28yrs to get enough upper body strength for proper pushups!!)

4. Discovered few favourite songs iggy azalea - beg for it and shila amzah - masih mencintai

Indeed it was a good day! And oh! HAPPY NEW YEAR BITCHESSSSS ;* and happy belated real birthday!

Oh December!

Last post was in July, how busy could I be?

Currently, in the last days of my 3-week long work leave..very well rested = one happy engineer :-)

In this post, I would like to do a lookback on 2014. I know I am 19 days too early but what harm can it do.

In conclusion, 2014 has been.....

1/ the year I have added a stackpile of acquaintances; you know from meeting one person to his/her group of friends yada yada yada... I feel that I have not explored my own town yet.. (Brubru is a very small country you know!)

2/ the year I travel less but explore many new places; Manila, El Nido, Taipei, Macau, Penang. I would put El Nido and Penang as one of my favourite places after Sydney and Rome.

3/ the year I have eaten many yummy, and sometimes pretty, cakes; we have found a good fondant cake maker..Bambi chocolate peanut butter cake, Chanel Boy crunchy chocolate cake, Olaf(from Frozen) red velvet cake,  Shisha bong blueberry cheesecake.....also Sue's cakes are to die for.

4/ the year that I did not do well on fitness...well I sort of got sidetracked on whatever. To be improved in 2015

5/ the year Doraemon started spraying EVERYDAY until I decided to castrate him. Its for my own sanity. Please don't judge my action.

6/ the year that I started to question why the F am I working so hard, I feel that not much have been spent in developing ourselves and everyone up there have their own agenda.

7/ the year that I visited Sydney after 3 years; so happy that Sydney is still like how I remembered it! Even the owner of the Italian restaurant (that I used to go all the time) in Kingsford remembered me!! That was one of the highlights of my trip :D. Brought 3 guys to Sydney, they said they enjoyed the trip, one even said yes he doesn't mind moving to Sydney hahaha!

8/ the year that I went to 3 music festivals; steve aoki/angger dimas in Sunway, FMFA in KL(short lived due to deaths during the supposedly 3-day fest) and lastly Stereosonic in Sydney

9/ ...i am out of ideas, will continue if I remember something!

Cheers,

R

Winning and letting go

Today I won a $20 shopping voucher for answering a quiz. In fact, I like answering quizzes or riddles and I usually win something  from it. Just for the gist.

When I looked back and reflect, I realised that I like winning. I think this is due to the nature of being an only child, everything has to be my way(if possible). I also realised that I don't necessarily like winning if the task is difficult and the prize is not worth all the effort...

This comes to the second part of the title, which is letting go. I am not risk adverse, but my approach to winning is only go for it if you think you can...like 99% sure that you can win and not 50-50. And for that 1% chance of losing it must not induce any emotional and physical disgrace. 

All being said above, being human, I do let myself go away from what I set for resulting all the consequences of not winning a.k.a losing. Two days ago I told myself its time to move on. I decided that I need to move on and set myself for positivity in life. So yeah no more sad post. ; )

bish

Second day of the third month

2 months out, 10months to go to 2015 and one and half month to go to my 28th.

Life is good nowadays, crazy with work and as of today, no exciting travel locations planned yet. I think the travel group should be doing one beach trip and one city trip this year, so either Palawan or Bali for the beach and either Taipei or Sydney for the city trip... Lets see how it goes over the months.

bish

2014

Dear me,

Happy new year. 2014 will be the year I'm gonna sort out my life, in health and financially. 

Looking back, I entered 2013 with a bang in the face and over the months I made new friends, found passion in travelling, having a good time and working out. 2013 was a kickstarter to my career, no more a graduate now a yuppie, umm until the next 8 years haha! I also found out that I can cook, even prepped my own healthy meals to work. Wondered why wasn't I this health conscious before? I think 2013 was the year I matured, so thanks to all who brought me in 2013, who made me the way I am now. I believe for everything that has happened, happened for a reason..so no regrets to anything.

However, there were things that I neglegted while pursuing and searching for happiness(or maybe I was just trying to run away from feeling empty). I will try to improve, circle myself with people who will be able to help me and continue trying to burst my own bubble. Take criticism, understand where it stems from and take it as a challenge.

If I may take one of the 7 habits of highly effective people, "Start with end in mind". I am just about to start my 2014 with realising what I want to achieve by the end of 2014. To be happy, to be carefree, to be financially solid. I will not put details here as the specific goals are quite personal, but then stay tuned for (my infrequent) updates.

On other note, I just came back from a steve aoki and angger dimas performance in sunway lagoon, KL..Had major fun, travelled with new bunch of friends and I really enjoyed it. While on the plane, on the way back I looked at my situation and if I continue to travel monthly it will not help with my cashflow hence I have decided that I will only limit my travelling once every quarter this year. Sydney will be a definite go this year, I miss it too much, I need to eat all the food! But before that I need to shed some fat and water weight, gain some muscle and reward myself with a ticket to Sydney(sounds like a good plan :D )

Glad to see that Do missed me after this weekend trip.

Now let me end this blog entry with a view from our hotel room in Sunway Lagoon.

xoxo,

bish

blogging on my 6 year old MacBook

hellew world,

Today I decided to dust my macbook and use it for spreadsheet and maybe surf lornajane website. Pretty disappointed with lornajane website cause it is wonky if  I surf on my iPad. Something about laptop makes me feel.. intellectual hehe! Anyways, what have I been doing this week?

1. Went to the city to meet up my uni friend and eat Korean food! Nyums!
2. Managed to go gym twice this week despite busy schedule
3. Had my toes repainted to bubble gum pink (of course they're pedicured)
4. Shipped the biggest box I've ever seen from the US (disclaimer: not everything in the box is mine)
5. Bought ticket to singapore for next fortnight

So all in all, quite a happy week for me!

anyways Happy weekend!

bish

Feelin blaah

Blablablablabla!

Goodnight young padawan.

bish

I just want you to be happy...

Be happy, and according to you, we won't be happy if we stay, we'll be happier if we're not together.. how can it be? you took my happiness away. I am still bitter, it has been almost a year, maybe you already found your happiness and if you do please show me how to. This is for you H.

bish

Incompletely happy

Six months and counting.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm happy or not. Maybe I am but there's a void space that were once filled but now its empty. I'm happy but incomplete.

If I were to make this blog my emo diary

What will people say?  Happy on the outside crazy sad on the inside? Ha ha

Current obsession is Mirror by Justin Timberlake

Love
Love
Love

9 more days to Japan!

R

Counting days to 🇯🇵 and 🇰🇷

Yay! 2.5 weeks to go! Im gonna eat all the sushi in the world nyums!

Suffering from fever, given sick cert by doctor, dozed off after consuming the meds. Super sedated slept six hours without waking up!

Now, im gonna continue sleeping.

R

Sydney

How I missed you! Last I set foot there was July 2011, and my holiday had to cut short due to a family drama :(
Shall i see you again in October? Teeheee

We shall see, my mission would be shop, eat and meet! and of course relax.

Me on my bed, Do is standing on his playbed purring and trying to damage whatever is in his paws. Hmmph! Such a brat.

bish

Nano cloud

I was once your cloud,

The one that sheltered you from the sun,

And you were once my cloud,

The one that poured rain down, so I could live.

Always love this song, very subtle so many hidden meaning behind it. 

please excuse the father-son gimmick, they're not even related. i think it was used to dodge the real intention of the song.

Wish you are well

RR

Nothing is forever, then what makes, love exception?

I never knew hey ya was a sad song until today. Until I watched Scrub season 8 episode 15.

http://youtu.be/QEYc

RR

Sometimes I wonder

if i should be amused or bemused with what has happened.

I'm back to blogging using my 5 year old macbook and i really hope this keyboard lights up so I can type in the dark with less chance of typo...(super duper lower chance of typo with ipad/iphone lol) which reminds me, I think next year I'm due for overall apple products change.

So back to this macbook, i was browsing through the pictures..I have thousands of photobooth pictures and I can't believe that I took more than 1000 pictures in front of this macbook, I am also amazed how happy we were and all. Sigh, I think its sinking in now that everything has changed and life must go on.

And to go on, I think I better sleep now.

bish

Crazy

I wanna start this article by showing what I have discovered over the past hour online and end it with a punch..but I got lazy cos it's almost 1am. I think my energy is better spent on things that will give me happiness in return.

So yeah, happy fake birthday. On the scale of 1 to 10, I can't measure my sincerity now. Oh! I better stop writing cos its over.

Maybe I should humor you with this song.




R

Good night, sleep well

This will be your lullaby.

 R

Short sentences update

Our memories are always ours. Ours to keep.

bish